On The Edge

I have been so tired lately. Dead tired. Like sit down on the edge of the bathtub to brush my teeth tired. Which can sound a lot like laziness but it wasn’t – that would have been just skipping the whole brushing the teeth thing.

And as I’m sitting, brushing my teeth (the tired but not lazy way) it dawns on me that I know exactly why I’m so tired. It all has to do with a magic yellow pill. A little pill I should take every day. A little pill I haven’t taken in…way too long.

I have no idea why it’s so challenging for me. I make sure the girls take their vitamins every morning. Okay, almost every morning.  Mondays can be a bit challenging.  But I do a pretty good job of staying on top of it.

But when it comes to me – I can’t seem to make it a priority.  Even though I know my body needs this to function properly.

I used to do really good, it was just part of my morning routine. I would only get messed up when I ran out because it would take me a while to get a refill. And I’m not sure why that’s so hard…I mean, really?

This time it took me several months. I waited so long my prescription actually ran out and the doctor’s office wouldn’t give me a refill until I came in. But then I told her how long it had been and they called me in a temporary.  And that’s what I’m still using.  Because I haven’t been taking them.

And I swore I would never do that. I swore I was never going to be one of those women let themselves go. And I’m not talking about looks – I’m talking about being so busy taking care of everyone and everything that you forget to take care of yourself. 

I’m not there yet. But this is an indication that I’m creeping in that direction.  Next thing you know I’ll be wearing granny panties, flannel pajamas and crocs…

Lord help me!