I Love The Smell Of Clean

In a few short hours I will be headed out for vacation. No worries, no distractions, no responsibilities - just the sun, the beach, and the ocean. Heaven.

I think I am all packed. I hope. There is always some last minute item that I forget, no matter how many times I go over my list. Which I have done many times tonight. But I think I am ready. And because I am neurotic I cannot leave without cleaning my house so that is off my list too. I love that right now my bathroom smells like bleach. Weird, I know.

So I ordered a couple of bathing suits online. When I got them I was really excited because they fit and I liked them but then I looked again....and one of them will have to go back. The bottoms are just not really...big enough.  I'm kicking myself because if I would have sent it back sooner I could have had my replacement by now but I waited too long so now I am one bathing suit short. I really just didn't notice it at first but I tried them on again and this time really got a good look in the mirror and I was surprised at how much booty was actually hanging out. There was definitely some cheek exposure. And out of all my bathing suits Benny likes my "Mommy Suit" the best so the itty bitty bikini bottoms are out...

Did a presentation today at UCO for McNair. I was teaching Methodology. Man, I miss miss miss research. I really do enjoy it. It kind of solidified that I want to get my Phd. I want that level of research experience. But then I think about taking classes and the course load and the kids and it seems...overwhelming. And I wonder, how much older will they have to be before I can take that on and not feel like it's a burden for my family? It's a family sacrifice and it makes me feel selfish to ask them to have less of me than they already do...I don't know, maybe in a few years it will seem more feasible.  

But I do miss the research part. And the people. Love my UCO peeps. Some absolutely amazing students. They blow me away. Talented, motivated, fearless - the kind of student I wish I would have been. And of course, I miss my friends. More like my second family. They have shared just about every major milestone in my life - masters degree, marriage, first home, babies. We've been through it all. It was a nice way to end the week before vacation...

Off to catch a few hours of sleep before we take off...beach party here I come!