Make It Count

We lost. Again.  I am SO bummed. And frustrated.  Neither of these loses should have happened.  We played poorly and got beat by teams that aren't as good as we are.  A loss is always hard but giving it away, man, that really stings.  But that's what happens when you play poorly and no amount of Sooner magic was gonna help us out of it.  Still love my team though.  But they better win Bedlam this year...

There were upsets all over this weekend - it was just a strange weekend.  And then, the OSU tragedy - the head women's basketball coach, assistant coach, and two others perished in a plane crash.  I just can't imagine how difficult that must be for the families right now. I am especially struck by the death of the assistant coach - the youngest on the plane, she was only a year older than me. She wasn't married and didn't have children, which in a way is easier - but that is exactly why it has struck me. She was so young and there was so much in life that she didn't get to experience.  She never got to experience the joy of pledging her life to the one she loved, never felt the rush of love when seeing her newborn for the first time...it just seems so incomplete.

And maybe she never wanted any of those things.  Maybe her life was exactly everything she ever wanted it to be...but it makes me think about the value of each day and the importance of doing just that - making your life what you want it to be.

I don't have a bucket list.  I know people swear by them and feel they are important and I get the concept but I don't have one and don't really feel the need for one.  If I died tomorrow I would feel that the things I've wanted to do with my life I was able to do: get an education, build a family, and try to make the world a little better.

Sure there are a few places I think it would be cool to visit, maybe a few things I might like to do but if those things never happened I would be okay with that - I wouldn't feel like I was missing out. So I think for me, my bucket list would be just to remember that I have in my life all that I want.

And I'm not sure why, but that's something that is so easy for me to forget sometimes. I've really not been the kind of wife I had hoped to be - I've fallen short in the expectations I had for myself and hurt the person I pledged to love.  It's a disappointing and painful experience to lose sight of what is most important to you.

And so for me, I think about making the most of my life, making my life complete...and it's really simple, appreciating what I have and always being grateful for what I've been given. So in my lifetime, that's what I'll work to do: love the people I love in the best way I can.  And maybe work in a few OU games too...