Flashback

I'm in a nostalgic mood...

Today at work I had a surprise visit from a guy I went to high school with. I didn't really know him in high school; I guess I technically don't really know him now. FB has managed to not only connect old friends but kinda create some too. We're "friends" through FB so we kinda keep up with each other that way. He enrolled at the college I work at so he stopped in to say hello.

It was kinda strange. First, it's kinda weird to visit with someone that I've never spent any time with and really don't know yet I know intimate details of his life - what he ate for breakfast, what movie he just watched, who he went to the bar with, and fact that he couldn't sleep last night. So we don't know each other but we're past the point of the typical get-to-know-you chit chat. It's a weird in-between phase.

Second, he talked about a whole bunch of people from high school that I didn't know or hang out with like I knew them or that they knew me. Ugh, no. I was the nerdy girl, remember? But the stories made me thankful that I'm not still living in high school mode. At one point he was telling me about someone who was playing them against each other and trying to "break up the crew". Yes, that was a direct quote.

Third, I'm pretty sure he tried to bait me about my former roommate. The one I told you about here, that said some pretty unpleasant things about me. He just mentioned her very casually in passing and then said he thought she said we lived together. He was kinda vague so I just responded in general and without going into detail just said we weren't friends anymore, that we kinda had a falling out but without a fight or any arguing - we just kinda grew apart but with a negative twist.

He told me she thought she was kinda unstable, he had sent her a text asking her to not post something on his FB, she went ballistic and yada yada yada. But I was immediately surprised - they were good enough friends to text? Because he totally just made it sound very just-happened-to-run-into-her kinda thing. And then later he actually told me that they had lived together.

What?!? Then I'm sure you already know that we aren't friends. And if history repeats itself, then you probably heard some kinda crappy things said about me too. I was totally being baited. That bothers me. I mean, really, what - you want me to say something negative so you can run back and tell her? Or you want me to try to defend myself and launch into "my" version of the story? I'm sorry but I'm so over all that.


But it did make me think about her and our failed friendship. That's so hard for me - I guess I just expect to always have a relationship with the people I let in my life and it's tough when I don't. It's weird to me to care for someone and then not to care about them at all. And really, honestly, I don't think I can. I always care about people from my past in some way. Even the boyfriend who dumped me two weeks before my senior prom - the exact day I finished paying for all my prom stuff. Yes, DN, buried somewhere deep down there's even a little tiny bit of care for you.