When it comes to taking care of myself, I can't seem to manage to do well in more than one area at a time - it's like I'm completely incapable of multihealthing. Either I'm working out on a regular basis and eating like crap or I'm eating well but not working out...I just can't ever get those two in sync.
This is probably deeply rooted in the fact that I suspect I subconsciously self-sabotage. What else would explain the fact that the same day I was so excited to discover I have a decent body fat percentage I also ran out and bought myself a candy bar? Come on, that just screams "issues". There goes my theory about being a well adjusted adult.
So I decided that I was going to make a conscience effort beginning this week to clean up my eating habits, which are pretty much horrible. I've been walking at the gym on a regular basis and I'm ready to start running again but instead, I decided to focus on the food stuff. I've got the walking part down, I don't want to do anything to mess it up and I'm afraid if I start doing that I'll lose whatever focus I have to make better food choices. Baby steps.
I wake up this morning ready to go! I'm going to stay within 1200 calories - I can do this!
But the diet gods were not kind.
There were cupcakes in the office by 10:00 am. Later a student stopped by to present me with double fudge rice krispie treats. Double fudge.
Are you kidding me? I'm trying so hard!
I held strong and managed to avoid both of them but I have to tell you, I had a hell of a day. It was really busy and really stressful - just one thing after the other and all I really wanted to do was say screw it and stuff a cupcake in my face.
I'm hoping tomorrow will be cupcake and stress free...
******Update Tuesday, February 11*******
Seriously people?!?
Someone brought donuts to our meeting this morning AND when I walked back in the office I found a student had dropped off a special treat for me. Why, why, why??? So much temptation...must resist...must resist...
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