Because really, more than anything, I just want to share the
incredibly silly, sometimes funny and often mundane things I experience in
life. But today, I just want to bitch. I want to rant and rave and gripe and
complain. That’s what I want.
It’s about work stuff. I’m not brave enough or stupid enough to say
everything that I want to say but I will give you a broad overview so you can
understand and sympathize on a level I find satisfactory. Because isn’t the real
goal of all bitching to have other people confirm that the other team sucks?
So I’ve had a goal of getting something done for our program
that is completely unnecessary and isn’t required but something I think is
important, something I think will make our program better and stronger. This
has always been a goal of mine, since day one. The first year we were just
trying to get things going so I didn’t pursue it.
The second year I did some research and found out another
department on campus was already doing this. I set a meeting to discuss the possibility
of a collaboration. That meeting didn’t go well. There was just no interest
from the other party. Then we had some
staffing changes that prevented us from exploring it immediately and other
projects took priority.
So here I am, in year three, no closer to reaching that goal
then I was in year one. This infuriates me. It just annoys me that I haven’t done anything
to make any progress. It’s just been a lot of talk. Kinda of like my plans to exercise
and get in shape.
So several months ago an opportunity opened up to
collaborate with the office I visited a year ago. They’ve had a staffing change
and were willing to work together. So we
have a meeting and decisions were made, deadlines were set.
I had all my materials together and submitted by the
deadline. But heard nothing from anyone else. Didn’t even get an
acknowledgement of the things I had sent.
Nothing. A few weeks pass and I follow-up only to learn that a date had
been set for something and I had been left out of the loop. So I’m annoyed that
I wasn’t kept informed and even more annoyed because the date conflicts with
something I was planning. Of course, if I had been consulted, that wouldn’t
have been an issue.
So, okay, I’m a team player. I’m going to ignore all that,
change the thing on my calendar and move forward. So we have a meeting today
and as soon as the meeting starts it’s just kinda slipped in that the group
moved forward and submitted paperwork for their department but not mine but we
can still be included in some things and get included in the paperwork next
year. It’s just inserted in the middle of a monologue, like it’s no big deal.
So I’m all whoa, whoa, whoa – let me understand this: you
agreed to collaborate, asked me to waste my time putting together materials you
didn’t use, and then didn’t even have the professional courtesy to inform me
that your plans had changed? WHO DOES THAT?
It was just a little awkward as I expressed my dissatisfaction…although I was contained enough in the meeting to be considered professional. I think.
I’m not sure because I was pissed inside. Really pissed. I just expect more of people in a professional environment. Like really people, could you just have told me? I’m okay if we don’t collaborate – I just thought it would be mutually beneficial but don’t cut my throat and act surprised when I’m not happy about it.
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